Hopefully. Thats the Gift.|Monday, April 17, 2006
alright!let me tell u something about today! nothing interesting. haha! yeah. me eating broccoli now. simply delicious. its buttered broccoli. yeah. it'll be much nicer if warm. but i very well REACHED home at 9pm. when i left sch at 730pm. i waited till 8pm..after six 96 buses had passed me.and there was no single 151. sighz. so reluctantly i hafta take the MRT home. and i dun like the train.i love buses. serious.and...right now...there is a wake happening under my block. there r always wakes at my block. maybe coz it is near the carpark.ok. (breathing in and out regularly)after all the hype in my tagboard...for the pple who didnt name themselves...thanks for being virtually there...u guys r realli great...for hafie n nurul...sighz. u both are a bit giler. nevertheless..both of you are still the best! sayy...i m alright now!managed to clear a lot of things up. things happen for a reason. layz! aunty...ure obsessed w ministers now, arent you? hehe!ok...i m feeling very relieved right now. and i m very very thankful for everything. we managed to thrash things out. and yes. we made it back yesterday...and both of us are up and running. personally...i felt that the break...though i was so emotionally estranged by it...was necessary. necessary for the both of us. after a 7pm till 130am sms and call deliberation, we relent. of course. things will never be the same again. Insya'Allah..it will be better. :) we save the friendship.like what i told a great friend...both of us...we started out with mere friendship. Love and all others...come with the package...if we are able to save the friendship...the Love so pure will bloom again.we do talk about how we are scared to be hurt or to hurt again...but we try n put things in perspective. we can never run away from getting hurt. even how we may smile widely each day and never grumble to each other. hey...wake up. even couples who are 'safely' married are still prone to getting hurt. for this...one felt shitty.the other felt pain.each waited for the other to give in.we learnt that times are so uncertain. who are we to try and own the future when the future is not ours in the first place? we are leaving things to when the right moments come. we lower our expectations a bit. i guess..that may be the right thing to do at this moment.nevertheless...the love...i wanna let it bloom. strong. and hopefully. tts the Gift.
* spoken&willspeakagain*
10:15 PM
