i cant seem to let go...|Monday, April 10, 2006
it all seems like a dream. i never thought that it could happen to me. i dunno what else i can write or what else i can say...i really dont know. i just want someone to cuddle me while i cry my heart out...and tell me that everything is going to be ok...and that i m a gal so strong that nothing can shake me...my parents were there for me. but i cant burden them any more with my problems. they already told me not to be unfair to them. meaning...school problems leave it in sch.dont bring it back home...i guess i have to handle it on my own. i would like to turn to my friends...and cry my hearts out...really really cry. but i cant seem to do it...haha...exams...that is more important. and yeah. i understand. just now...i had been on the verge to cry so many times. but i guess...i had been so used to crying with one person that...i am not comfortable with anyone else.things are different...i felt so alone. so alone in going through this. maybe people think that it is such a petty matter. but i think they will never understand. the love we had for each other.i dun think anyone can understand him better than i do. and i dun think anyone can understand me more than he does. but it had to end.i hope when i cry in my sleep tonight...i hope someone will come down and hug me...telling me that things are going to be ok...and that when i wake up the next day, i am going to be alright..."Ya Allah...pada malam yang mulia dan mustajab ini...Engkau tunjukkanlah aku arah yang harus aku tujui...Engkau tenangkanlah hatiku...agar aku tenang...dan tegar menghadapi perkara ini...Pimpinlah hambaMu yang lemah ini, Ya Allah..."
* spoken&willspeakagain*
9:56 PM
