While We Are Busy Mugging...|Wednesday, April 19, 2006
i noe some pple are wondering how i can find time to blog. and blog long entries. well...lets just say. i am given 24 hours a day. and what is a few minutes of blogging as compared to almost ten hours of mugging. a thought to ponder. if you treat blogging as a way for you to be reflective...then u wud blog everyday. *smiles*my MSN nick today is this..."while we are busy mugging.lets think of the unfortunate." why did i say that?i got to know from nurul yesterday that one of our RGS schoolmates is in the terminal stage of cancer. the girl, Shufang, was just a schoolmate to me. but she was nurul's primary sch friend. and sec sch. to hear this bit of news was shocking. because i thought she had the tumour removed. it seemed that the cancerous cells had spread to the whole body. as if this info was not shocking enough, i happened to read one of her close friend's blog. and i was reading it in the central library before mugging. and i was dumbfounded. truly.Shufang,from the last time i saw her in Sec four...was a great gal. she is smart. she is athletic. she is pretty....and she is realli realli nice. one who gains respect from her peers.we were not really classmates or anything. but just mere RGS schoolmates. smiled when we passed each other along the corridor. i doubt if she remembers me now. but that doesnt matter. we identify ourselves as RGS gals. to hear that she is in a state so critical, makes me shudder. i cant help but try to put myself in the shoes of everyone around her and also herself. she is twenty like me. here i m worrying for exams and there she is. battling for her life. i m worried about not getting married and there she is. battling for another tomorrow. i m worried if i m able to give sunshine to my students in future and there she is. battling for another glimpse of sunlight each day.i am not sure if this is actually what she is feeling. but this is what i comprehend from her close friend's blog. 'fighting'. the word that can amply describe her now. we pray for her yah? please do. though we all may not know who she is. lets take it this way...if ur loved one is fighting like her...won't you feel blessed that he/she is in the safe prayers of others...do pray that she is given strength to fight on...besides this, my Aceh mate messaged me. saying that one of the girls there msg her. asking her how she has been doing and all. we were shocked.and to think that they remember us over here when it had been close to five months since we left them. and they still remembered us. oh gosh. what were we thinking when we thought it was all over...and that our job is done? now the memories of Meulaboh came rushing back again. how could i have neglected them like that?these two thoughts kept playing in my mind. i felt so ashamed of myself. i was emotionally distraught a few days ago. over small matters and exams and domestic disputes. how selfish was i. and here. one of my friends is battling for her life. and a Meulaboh orphan is waiting for us to come back. yearning for our company. what was i thinking? why was i even angry or frustrated that these MINOR things are happening to me when such BIGGER stuffs are happening to them...and they are facing it with faith...and courage? i guess...this is what people meant when they say..."there are more to life...than exams."
* spoken&willspeakagain*
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