TIRED|Sunday, May 07, 2006
hey...here i am. alive and...sneezing. tired k. let me see. uni life forms the bulk of my time. it first started with pesta pantun. and that was a whole lot of planning, mind u. especially with a five-pple team. after pantun, which ended in february...it was the period of the essays. gosh. another hectic period, in which i haf to survive group members and more challenging modules. and then it was the exams. and then i went to help out at my office and the 'very busy' period only ended yesterday at 3am.and i tell you. i admire my colleague who really can tahan for long hours. *kudos to izzati!* and later. which is probably in a few hours time...i need to get started on FOC.less than 2months to work on it.sighz.
i want a break. i want a good pampering session at some spa. i want a massage to loosen up all those tight joints and muscles and whatever else that is tight. i want peace and calm. i dun want to stay at home because some people cannot speak or talk nicely.they just haf to shout and claim that they are right all the time. and i am really tired. tired of thinking. its like...sighz. i still feel the same amount of uptightness up there in my mind, similar to the uptightness i felt when i was having my exams. i want to relax. i dun want people to shout at me. i want calmness. it is during stressed up times like this when i wished i was at meulaboh...i remembered when i was there...the only reason that i wanted to go back to Singapore was because...of my family,the really special person in my life...and of course, the fact that education opportunities are good in Singapore. but other than that...i would have prefered it if Singapore is a much calmer place than it is now. u noe..the stress part. other than that...meulaboh was a great place. i can just sit by the beach in Meulaboh and cry...cry because i am happy...happy to be calm. you sit at the breakwaters...you just sit there...then you let the waves splash and crash and wet your feet...and pull all ur troubles and worries away, right there from your feet. then you will feel as if ur troubles and worries right from the tip of your hair are pulled down slowly...and the feeling is as if...you can really SEE your worries and troubles being washed and set adrift...out into the sea. anyways...whats the point of wishing....the past few days had been a great learning experience. General Elections. it is about great leadership. it is about beliefs. it is about passion. it is about commitment. and most importantly it is about you,putting urself aside, for the benefit of other people. SERVICE, is the ultimate word. but do you know...what makes this last point possible? the support of ur loved ones. if you are a guy, then its ur wife and children. (and vice versa if ure a gal). the people who were there where i was..all of them were married. the husbands...they plan. and they make sure that they spend as much time preparing for GE, and also make time for their wives and children. and really. nothing works better than to have your loved ones...working hand in hand with you and accompanying you home after a hard day's work. seriously. i think it feels good. i noe i am young.and i haf no business to care about their married lives and work. haha! but hey. i was thinking...would my husband support me in the things i like to do? would he fetch me home in the middle of the night? would he pat me on the back and say that things are going to be all right, even though the reality is...things are damn bad? i dunno.shud i care about it now?anyway...dun be surprised that i am not commenting about politics at the moment. i shall save it for later. :) love and miss you guys. and You. miss you a lot..
* spoken&willspeakagain*
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