my thoughts|Sunday, June 25, 2006
i m feeling so downcasted now.
maybe because i want FOC to go well and the team is working so hard towards that. and i pray it will go great.FOC tests my competency. i realise i am not as good as i thought i am. ok ok. i admit. i admit i do think i can do things well. but FOC makes me realise that it takes much more to be a good leader. it makes me control my emotions. to work well with other people. to think things through. FOC is an experience. a great one. and the team will work through it to the end...Insya'Allah. things will go great.and also...yeah. i realise we should always talk our problems. because outsiders can give you a different light to the things you are facing. and for me...i simply cant keep too many things inside me. or i will just feel so stuffed inside. and thats when the world starts to give me its blues. ergh. i hate it when i feel this way. and so...i m telling myself. that no matter what...do everything with sincerity. keikhlasan.i need to constantly remind myself of this. keikhlasan.... i owe my life not to the world. i owe my life to God. and i shall live in this world to please only in His ways...i hope i can work my way through to be a better person. u noe....the muslimah solehah...always reading up on khadijah, siti aisyah and fatimah...and they are just so good...believe in God so well. not blinded easily by worldly goods and banes. i m just...nowhere near them. is it too idealistic for me to strive to their heights?these are just my thoughts. my thoughts.
* spoken&willspeakagain*
10:07 PM
