|Saturday, July 15, 2006
remember in my last post i commented something about camp REPERIO being a feedback to myself on myself? well..yeah. u noe something?i think i have got to move on. not dwell on the past. simply because...it had happened. and i guess...probably...there is exactly no other way for me to prevent it from happening except to let it happen. u noe...during the span of the relationship...i always pray and pray to God that if we are not meant to be...to let my heart be closed and that it shud end as quickly as possible. and i guess...since it happened...we are just not meant to be. its not easy to accept it. a friend of mine said that she took two years to come to terms with a break up. i wanna pose a challenge to myself and take a time much less than her. i noe i can do it and i noe i am strong enough to handle it.u noe how sweet nurul, hafie and shad was during the camp? at the beginning right...they gave me an FOC survival kit. which has a LIME mag....FLOWERS...PILLOW (its princess fiona btw...)...STREPSILS....ROBITTUSIN....(for me to survive my sore throats n cough and they were DARN useful)...CHOCOLATES!!!...and MINYAK KAPAK (according to hafie, it cures a magnitude of illnesses). hahaa! sighz. then i just broke down a bit. it was such a nice feeling to cry with my circle of great friends. serious. i feel so homely. and i love u guys. i love u guys to the core.and i will take less than two months. *hints to mukmin*
and u noe what is my main aim now?to be a good student and to tuntut ilmu.i imagine myself to be a great teacher who inspires her students to pursue their hearts desires and make their youth a worthwhile one. something that they will remember all their life. and i wanna make my imagination come true.and allow my ideals to be REALITY. and i am not giving up doing just that.i am going to work on being just ME. and not someone whom i am NOT.hey world. watch out for me.
and about having a person whom i can depend on...who would love and look after me like i am a gem....i guess...if that person ever comes...he will be a Gift. a Gift i will treasure till the end of my lifetime.
* spoken&willspeakagain*
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