|Saturday, August 12, 2006
if there are....i pray it'll be just bad whispers that my heart occasionally makes and nothing else
i feel like writing this down. now tt i have taken post n position...i guess...my humble ramblings on this space here would be limited.
i know that tonight is saturday night. and it is slightly more than 24 hours before school starts. before my life will start. afresh.
i hope.
i pray for God to bless the things that i do good. and that i'll cleanse my intentions such tt there will not be mean ones. and even . and if whatever i do is right...i pray that i'll be blessed.
for this upcoming semester. I am making my way to score in my studies. i shall take in as much ILMU as i can...with a HEART and a MIND as OPEN as POSSIBLE. NEVER shall I allow anything else around me to put a stop for me to bridge a relationship with Allah s.w.t. through the ILMU that He has asked us to seek...as for PBM...i pray that my journey for the whole term, together with my team, will be blessed. i hope that the experiences gained will be fruitful and that we will achieve our aims. my intentions are never to belittle. i just pray for our undergrads will be good future leaders of the community. and of the society. i noe i am similar to any other undergrad. i make the same mistakes that they make. but we will learn from each other. Insya'Allah. as for my family...i hope i can do more. i hope i can get all the money in the world and settle problems once and for all. yeah i noe. money isnt always a solution. in the mean time, i'll try to make them see the other side of things. that success is not always measured by the raise we get for our monthly wages. and that success is not always measured by the many statuses we attain. and i hope...somehow or rather... there'll be less shouting. less screaming. less instances of pple being chased out of the house. i hope to see more respect. pple will only respect you if you respect them. yup. ultimately...i hope to see more respect. not only between a child and a parent (which is not the problem). but there is only so much a level that children can respect their parents. maybe parents should noe tt...respect never comes with authority. pple gain authority with respect. its getting more painful so i shall dissolve this matter. as for my friends (EMINENCE, NUS, RGS and ALL)...i love you guys. i hope i wont hurt you guys in any way. u noe....shall watch my language n stuff. be more ayu. haha! okok. tts a joke. a big one. haha! i hope that my friendship with you pple will last for so so so long. insya'Allah i will attend all your weddings k. if i happen to not make it...then i'll be there in spirit. because u probably never know how much each and everyone of you actually means to me. and as for u...just take care. i just wish...i can be as happy as u. the smile. tt still lingers. oh well!! its late at night. shall take my leave.
* spoken&willspeakagain*
11:22 PM
