|Sunday, September 10, 2006
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t has been a rather tiring week. mentally. firstly, i had my lit en3227 presentation this week and phew....i m glad it went...all right...i mean...it is a rather mediocre presentation but alhamdulillah...i m more alert nowadays. i think the jogging did well on me. i noe...i definitely need to be more discipline in order to make sure that per week, it is more than 5km that i jog. haha! dun roll your eyes k. i m trying. considering the fact that i have not ran for more than six months. ah! disappointing. i think *what am i thinking* that exercise is damn crucial ah! it would really boost ur daily alert levels. and make sure u are less tired because u noe...u can breathe in better and stuff. gosh. but it needs sheer discipline man....also...this week...two of my friends' dads passed away...i hope that we all can take iktibar from all that had happened. pray that their souls are well when they meet their Maker, Allah s.w.t. i think a lot of lessons can be learnt, especially for us, the ones still living in His world. this is just my personal reflection..till now, i cannot understand the notion of death. or maybe...death is something that we laymen cannot really comprehend what it is all about. what is dying...dying is the opposite of living?is it merely when something is no longer breathing? is that what LIVING is all about then, living is about breathing? just breathing?i think...in all that we do in our daily routine of Living, we need to always bear in mind the notion of death.so that when we die...our bodies may look 'unbreathing' but our souls are rich. that we do things with The END in mind, so that our LIVES will be worthwhile, insya'Allah... but then again...what does it mean to live our lives worthwhile? is it that...living is worthwhile when we contribute to community service? is it when...we are just happy painting or singing? is it when...we are all calm in our hearts? is it when...we work hard enough to push ourselves our of the poverty cycle and into the world's riches? is it when...we think we are able to exclude ourselves from the World and live like a hermit in some caves so that we can devout ourselves to serving God and reading His Words? what is this popular saying..."Living a Life Worthwhile"?i dare say that i am clueless myself. but i think Living a Life Worthwhile is when...u do something...your Heart is calm about it.and when can your Heart be calm? when you do anything at all with this Niat..."to find the blessings of Allah s.w.t.". Insya'Allah...anyway...i want to share something with you pple. what i learnt from kuliah dhuha this morning. 1) kita mesti adil dalam segalanya. jika setiap hari kita boleh menghabiskan baca suratkhabar, setebal mana pun...kenapa tidak kita cuba membaca al-Quran walaupun satu muka surat setiap hari?2) mesti selalu bersyukur.kerana tiada apa dalam dunia ini, milik kita....3) jangan suka mengetengahkan keburukan orang lain kerana sememangnya, kamu hanya sedang menutup keburukan kamu sendiri...yup. i miss my mum. i shall try my best. to make her the best mum i'll ever get. and i pray that...time is not running out for me....
* spoken&willspeakagain*
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