|Friday, October 06, 2006
i can't help but notice that i feel rather happy today. when i woke up, it was...pleasant. not the least tired, though i slept at one and i woke up at four. my body and mind getting used to the short hours of sleep and it is funny how i plan my journey to school just to catch that treasured sleep in the buses. haha! have u guys suddenly woke up feeling good?i did. and i hope that this 'good' feeling will carry on throughout the day. i do not know why i felt this way. maybe because i had a gut feeling that something good may happen to me someday. maybe soon. but i do not know what. i just know that it is something good and it will make me feel good. *insya'Allah* life has been pleasant for me lately. i've been trying to come to terms with my life...trying to learn to understand and accept certain things...trying to adapt and move on. slowly. but with great belief. and i think...i am somewhere there. at times, i do really wish i am not alone experiencing these things *for some, these things have meant nothing*...but oh well...i think i just need time. i am loving the way my family is going on. it has been really pleasant. maybe this is the Magic of Ramadan...Masya'Allah... We have not eaten these many times together in one month, compared to the many other months before. it is lovely. and i think, this is all i am looking forward to now.one day you will realise that the company of that someone is what you have been yearning for unknowingly. you allow life to go on as per normal. you seek smiles and words to be mere surface exchanges. but deep inside, you know that you are wishing for the conversations to be longer and that the smiles are turned into gazes. but you hold true to the rationality of the mind. so you keep on...behaving right. because you fear.
* spoken&willspeakagain*
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