|Wednesday, October 11, 2006
it is an hour after my only lecture on wednesday and yes. i have been on the net. such a menace is the internet but it is nonetheless useful and important. but ergh. i hate this idea of having to succumb my intellect to that of machines. *haha! not bad heh...*anyway... i just wanna comment on a few things. first and foremost..i promise myself to not dwell on my past. *but believe you me. it is a damn difficult and treacherous journey* i always put it upon myself to give the best in everything i do. be it in studies. in community work. in PBM. in my relationships with friends and acquaintances *and boyfriend included*. with my family. i just do not like this notion of doing things for the sake of doing. *even if i am to have fun, i'll try and have as much fun as i can. and if i sleep...boy...wont i be frustrated if i do not get a good one* and of course. i do admit that i do fall at times. in life, suddenly one day you are just not bright enough and attain a glamourous D for your project. also...in life again...one day pple just do not love you anymore and leave you. in life again...people can just suddenly hate you and just do not want you around them anymore. i guess certain things happen beyond my control. *i am not only speaking for myself. i think what i have to say do happen to a few others as well. if not more.* and yes. i need to move on. but it is never easy...to stand upright..after you are bruised from your fall...and it is again never that easy to start walking...*but i think i can do it. God-willing...*secondly, i think my mind has restructured itself. being in an organisation, need you to be ORGANISED. emails need to be properly composed. meetings need to be nicely held. meetings need to well-planned. you need to be able to be FORWARD-LOOKING and always always ANTICIPATE problems and challenges. you need to be STRONG. and most importantly, PBM teaches me to think of SOLUTIONS. and consider alternatives. it is a multi-faceted brain i have up here. sometimes the wires get messed up and i do get confused. but alhamdulillah. with patience, all can be sorted out.i cant say that my journey as a president has been smooth-sailing so far. different committees have different organisational personalities. and i guess...only time will tell for one to see, who is moving forward. and who is the one, who really does what he speaks. *ambiguous...* but i do feel one thing, you always need to remember your society's mission and vision. and remember that we do not only need members. you need ideas. you need your plans to move. you need to overlook the welfare of all your JK members, and of course. the members of the various event committees. we may have planned and hope events will happen. we ALL need to make sure THEY happen. for in each event that we hope to realize...we have thought of the OBJECTIVES. and we know that we do not DO events that are not in line with the OVERALL stance. it is always easy to scrape events. like it is always easy to commit suidice and be banished of problems. but my gut feeling says that...everything that we have planned...is still very possible. and i do not want to give up just yet. thirdly, i have 6 more school stuffs to complete. 3 essays, 1 project, 1 test and 1 presentation. all of these are due between 27 October till 11 November. i guess i need to start thinking and planning my essays now. *now that i am confident of flunking my EN3224 test which carries 15%* haha! insya'ALLAH. i can do them well.fourthly, wow. i need to start making kueh soon. u noe...cooking is a great mother-daughter bonding. and if there is one thing that i can take away from this Ramadan...are the many words i have exchanged with my mum that are more than the past 3 months added together. i hope this will go on...forever. *smiles*
sighz. hey peeps. i miss you guys. take care.
sometimes...you may be praying for something that you really really want. the thing that will make you so happy that you think nothing else can make you humanly happier. but u wonder why...why God is taking His sweet time granting you your wishes. Rest assured. i Accept that the Best Knowledge is His...
* spoken&willspeakagain*
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