|Thursday, October 19, 2006
ok. i know. i have lots of essays to think about. or actually, i should already have finished thinking about it. haha! but oh well. i am still thinking. haha! funny funny.
anyways. i had a great time meeting up with my ACEH team members yesterday. and our boraking at the coffeeshop! and the crazy ideas they came up with. and they are so vibrant and so tak senonoh!!! so giler-giler. fad...liyana...farhan...nisha...kelvan...and the rest (whom i've not met)...it is sure going to be a GREAT TEAM. sighz. i like. n you know..to get to know this people...to make new friends...(like how i am now friends with raudhah, my lit mate!!!)...is feels rather refreshing. it is like....a new breath of fresh air. it is like...you breathe fresh air from the Alps after a day's work in a smoke factory. haha!i was looking at my DECEMBER calendar. it is really going to be like last year. back to back of activities. with my exams! and my parents needing me around to help out with the catering for TWO WEDDINGS, one of which is my uncle's who has 2000 jemputan. and Pesta Diari Maya and Masih Ada Harapan. and Meulaboh. and my parents planned holiday break that they say I MUST go because i DIDNT go for holiday with them last year. gosh. so when is MY own break? lol.
and hey people. i wanna share something.i really feel so blessed to be where i am now. being in university. being in PBM. being in grassroots. being with my family. i was talking to an ex-colleague. he mentions that actually God leads us to the right way through our hearts. that is why sometimes you would get the inkling to do something and we name it the 'gut feeling'...but have we ever thought of it as a nudge from Allah swt? hmm. like now...i think i am talking to my mum so much more than i talk to her the past few months. i like to see her share things with me. and i think now...i love sharing things with her too. she can be so so lembut and soft-hearted. sigh. and why did i say those hurtful words last time...? maly...maly. and you know. she is so patient...usually if the man delivers the wrong stuff or stg...she will scold about the company being inefficient. but amazingly for this month, she is just smiling and "its okay...we will just wait." i hope this will continue. i hope that nobody out there is trying to break my family apart. no more evils. no more of this thing called 'black magic'. please leave us alone. we need each other.
and i think...this has been my best Ramadan so far...not a single fight with my mum. it is just plain...calmness and happiness....Masya'Allah...a few more days to go....Ya Allah...berkatilah kehidupan kami dengan keberkahanMu...Amin.
* spoken&willspeakagain*
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