|Saturday, December 09, 2006
ever since i finished my exams on monday, i felt so numbed. like every day just passes by like any other day. right after the majlis, i caught a cold, and later a sore throat and later and which means now, a fever. sigh. fever equates to me just lying down feeling helpless. but then again, if not for the fever, i would probably be going to school and that is a crazy idea, considering the fact that i badly needed the badly-deserved break.what? what do i feel about the exams? i guess it is a question that people who just finished exams will keep asking. and yeah yeah. i will answer.
EXAMS! haha! oh well, alhamdulillah! i know which modules i did very well, and which modules i kinda like my answers and which module i think i am happy to even get a C but i really hope to scrap past at least a B-minus grade. i love....GEK1014, and GEK1006 and EN3224. EN3227 belongs to the second category. and my EN3249 belongs to the last one. haha! sighz. all in all, to me, i am not that worried about my exams. as i grow older, i realise that exams are just benchmarks of performance and especially for Literature, it is just a CHANCE for me to debate and argue about the texts that i've read. i am looking forward to read more books, i guess. and insya'Allah, whatever results that i get, i'll just receive it with an open mind. anyway....i happen to watch a lot of DVDs. haha! got a few from JB and yup. i watched...the indonesian movie called HEART. sighz. this story makes me question about the fundamentals of LOVE. a guy suddenly fell in love with a girl he met on the street. man. is that how abrupt love is? u noe what....my mum told me something last weekend. she asked me if i notice this particular guy and she said that his mum said that he kinda always looks out for me. oh man. and you know what?? this guy was a guy whom i have been admiring from far since young because....i thought he is so good-looking but i never spoke a word to him because............he is good-looking and well...yeah...i am shy. haha! he did come to my house a couple of times for hari raya and all. and yeah...we always pass by each other but never talk. so THERE. but i dun understand. 'dia minat kat kau lah..' gosh! i dun even think he knew of my existence lah. sighz. i think love can be confusing. maybe he meant someone else and his mother says it is me. i mean....mistakes do happen. and even if that person whom he admires is me....i cant imagine how in the world sparks are going to fly or.. u know. that sort of thing. because, both of us are so berat-mulut ah! ergh. man. i think love is confusing. ERGH.sighz. Ya Allah, jika ianya hanya permainan dunia, janganlah biarkan aku terus tenggelam dalam khayalan. sekiranya perhubungan ini akan dapat membawa kebaikan, aku hanya bermohon kepadaMu untuk menunjukku ke jalan yang Benar..AMin.anyway....i think i just leave it to Allah swt. He knows best.
anyway.......yeah! i better get back to doing work. to reading books. to help my mum and dad plan their catering business CAREFULLY. and also to lead and PLAN for PBMUKS. insya'Allah. This academic year will END with WONDERFUL memories, thanks to great parents, great friends, great siblings and God.
* spoken&willspeakagain*
7:37 PM
