|Thursday, December 14, 2006
man...it is about....another 24-hr cycle before i set off for Ledang. sigh! i am dead anxious. i really really pray that i will be ok over there. it seems to be just a 2-3 day expedition thing. looks so short. nothing compared to my 10-day aceh trip in foreign land. but gosh. i have butterflies in my stomach. like..REAL butterflies! Ya Allah! tenangkanlah hati dan fikiran ku. yesterday i had to attend an AMP meetg. i will talk more about it when i get back. and gosh! i had a nice catching-up session with ridhwan! haha! macam...i see a familiar lbry gang face liddat. and yesterday morning, i had a 10 km walk*slash* hike with my bro,kamie and zah2! i love the walk. though i complained towards the end. i cant help it. i could smell the mee goreng mamak from the Roti Prata House. so what can i say?? before i start to drool, i might as well talk and complain. the only thing that drive me to the end was....the exit. and the Roti Prata House. haha!but tell me one thing. is DOING THE RIGHT THING subjective? i dunno. but yesterday when i read this sentence, i felt so irritated and unjustified. am i the only one who thinks that work is important? wud pple accept it if i place a date over a meeting?i dunno seh. as much as i try my best to understand...can someone enlighten me better? have i become one of those ladies who is so career-minded that there is no slightest tinge of feminism in me?but gosh. i have no slightest intention to be so work-oriented. i did all those things because i felt that it is my responsibility. and i know myself. how much i treasure my leisure time n the people around me. i was so busy last semester. and the semester before. but that didnt stop me from spending hours on the phone at night. but work didnt stop me from buying presents. from sending the frequent 'how-are-you-doing-dear?' SMSs... i was in love once before. but i thought i tried my best to divide my job and my significant other. sigh. was this why it didnt prolong?because....i was too busy? oh well. forgive me if i didnt try hard enough to understand you, my friend. but i thought there should be a line drawn between....work and...love. well, they can be intertwined.i know. and i understand. but hey... sigh. i'll just stop here. anyway...dear friends, please pray that i'll come back from ledang in one piece. and that even if i meet my Hang Tuah there, can you please pray that he loves Singapore and will come back with me?because i want him to meet my family and my beloved friends over here.
and i actually have a lot of work to do here in singapore....i pray that my trip will be a useful and helpful one...Insya'Allah....
* spoken&willspeakagain*
10:15 PM
