|Friday, February 09, 2007
buat penat aje aku type entry during my geog lecture this afternoon. to find out that i have smartly deleted it. geog lecture has webcasts so i'll be ok. i hope. haha! this week has been horrendous. people have been asking me if i am very stressed up. and i am not lying here. i am very very stressed up. till last tuesday night, after reaching home at about 12 plus, i locked myself up in my room, buried my face into my pillow and just cried my hearts out. it has been a very exhausting beginning of semester. 5 weeks of the term is already gone and we have 8 weeks more to go which means it is 2 months to go which means....not very much time left. left to do what?left to make sure that i do well this semester to push my CAP up to good standards. left to make sure that my JK will leave office feeling proud to have done a great job.left to make sure that PBM will continue to strive and be a relevant and trusting organization to the Malay community.left to make sure that after what i have gone through in my second year in NUS, i am ready to step into my third year, stronger.left to make sure that...I am a good daughter in my family.i have been stressed up for the past 5 weeks. i think it is the compilation of events from my studies+pbm+personal+home. studies..I have loads of readings to catch up on. i have a presentation next week on a reading which is half the last portion of my finger. i have a group computing proposal to make. i have to finish shakespeare's (english renaissance) As You Like It book. i have 3 Antony & Cleopatra's critical readings to finish by Monday. I have a geog project and field work to settle with my group mates. and of course. this includes thinking through good thesis topics for my literature essays. pbm...i am really thankful that alhamdulillah!! things are really picking up well. slowly, things are really looking well...we are picking up pace, we are making the TURN to make sure that this is one of the BEST pbm years. i am confident that my JK can do it well. i know they are stressed. I can see it on their faces. but i SEE their strength. and i can see prospects of an incoming JK. the year ones are making me proud. both my pantun (i wanna thank zah2, nad, reeza n wan for supporting this new team!!) and teroka seni team are doing great. malam pentas is coming alive. they are more confident now. my charity golf is also doing well. a very dedicated team.very. and masih ada harapan is looking good. with all the try-outs for games and such, alhamdulillah...i am thankful to faizal and kamal. the three of us have very different working styles but i realise that there is one thing we have in common, that is, we always seek each other's opinions and help. always helping each other out. always supporting. also...MY sect heads, MY PRAM, MY IT officer, MY secretaries and MY treasurers!! i apologize if at times, me, kamal n rawi tend to be stepping on your toes much too often... but we know you can do it... :) from the bottom of my heart. i pray that my JK will do well...both in our studies and juggling CCA...hey JK0607, i know we can do it. lets take this 6 months to go all out. we can be THE best jk. personal+home: sigh. it is because the taps are trickling water. and it is because the gas pipes are gasless. it is because...that much haven changed ever since i was young. dad, i do not want you to work just enough to pay your bills and debts...sometimes i wish i want to quit school and just start work. sometimes i wish i want to quit...to my bro, hey. you need to plan your life, bro. because mum and dad and me, will not be around you forever. you need to have goals in your life. and these are YOUR goals. they are no one else's. personal life...I am thankful to Allah swt for making me stronger day by day. i am really really thankful to Him...Allah swt makes me realize that He is with me, as much as i remember His presence...no more heart matters to make me go down in life.insya'Allah...
Ya Allah, Engkau jadikanlah aku seorang hamba yang bersyukur...Amin...
* spoken&willspeakagain*
5:38 PM
