|Tuesday, March 27, 2007
sometimes while we live our everyday lives, we do suddenly feel quite...afraid. it is even worse if we just cant pinpoint what exactly is that fear that we are feeling. fear...it is not exactly pleasant, isnt it?it makes you...scared. it makes you feel so ambivalent. it makes you feel insecure. when you are facing fear, your heart starts to beat so fast. your mind will be cluttered. your hands are all sweaty. your nerves all jittery.but sometimes, all these happen for no apparent reason. we just feel scared. but how do we perceive 'fear'? does it come to our eyes first? we see... therefore we feel scared?or does it come to our minds first? we think...therefore we feel scared?or...does it come to our hearts first? we feel...therefore we feel scared?i dunno. but i think fear...is like...a sign. it is a sign for what is going to happen in future. it is a sign that shows that there really EXISTS a realm of the unknown. it is not exactly SCARY. it is usually not the GHOSTLY kind of scary.Fear is just AMBIVALENCE. when your heart suddenly FEELs fearful...i think you should stop awhile and THINK. "what is it that makes me scared? is it my future (which is of course, something you cant control)...is it the fact that my loved ones are going to leave me one day (which is again...something you cant control)..." the list goes on. and then you SEE. see the various things around you that can help you CONTROL the ambivalence. but all in all..it is HIM, who controls it all. just berdoa, and berusaha.HE knows best ultimately. and we, as little beings, we should not feel...the least scared. insya'Allah. Labels: fear.and ambivalence.
* spoken&willspeakagain*
11:00 AM
