|Monday, April 02, 2007
i am so tired lah. i didnt sleep last night. was trying to finish up my shakespeare essay. subhanallah! i read widely for this essay ah! but..too bad. before i handed it up this morning, and i read through it, oh my goodness. in the midst of my rapidly blinking eyes due to lack of sleep, i saw that all my points were all over the place! my last two paragraphs were...literally ROJAK! no head no tail and points in the midst of nowhere!and i say i want to go new zealand...at the rate i am going...i think i can just dream. of sheeps and of mountains and of lord of the rings.ARWEN. :)but hopefully not. i want to go for honours seh. i mean...if i can start my career with good starting pay...why not right? but you know, nowadays, my failing grades, make me question as to whether i am cut out for literature. i am always at a lost, compared to my other coursemates. all that they say seem to always make sense ah! and how come only nonsense and weak arguments come out from my mouth? haha! sigh. takpe. hati kene cekal. i'll do it the more treacherous way then. i'll start from the top. ergh. exams in less than four weeks away!sometimes, when i look at my dismal grades, i was thinking that i should just go out and work. and start teaching instead. i am having so much fun teaching and tutoring now. and surprisingly, i am teaching mostly MATH! yeah i know what you guys must be thinking..ALL THE BEST TO THE KIDS for having a teacher who hates maths herself. but im cool. i mean, so far, they understand what i teach them. and trust me. i do hate it when i come to tuition or teaching unprepared. sigh. but in the midst of my schoolwork now, it seems that i cant prepare much! and for now,my main priority is my P6EM3 students. i miss them so much. i brought home their journals and goodness, though their sentence structures are not that good....their sincerity and openness of their hearts speak volumes ah! i love them alot. and i really do wish i can make a difference in their lives. though half of them are bigger and taller than me. all i need now...is to control my facial expressions and not laugh when they make stupid jokes...far too many times. lol. yeah. trust me.i think i do look funny teaching. and yes! love entries always generate many responses! look at the tagboard! people justifying the notion of falling in lovE! thanks kamie and sayy! and sayy!! no wonder your blog is more cheery now! ade udang di sebalik batu eh...hehe! anyway...though happiness should be embraced and confusion be forgotten...what happens when...your old love rekindles?he returns knocking the closed doors of your heart?when suddenly memories fill the gaps in your mind?when you suddenly realize that...you miss him?:) i dunno. i dunno what to do. Labels: old love rekindles
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