PAIN and HYPOCRITES|Wednesday, June 13, 2007
sometimes in life. we have bits and pieces of stories that we love to share with others. sometimes i wish i am born good. you know, good in a sense that i would be the apple of my parents' eye...and that my parents will think highly of me...and really appreciate my presence in this world. and you know. not compare me with other kids out there. oh well. i think it is natural for human beings to just compare. i am guilty of that too. it is just that...sometimes i wish we will all not be hypocrites and praise ourselves in front of others just because we want people to know what we do and have achieved. please dun say this... "oh she is now doing this..." or " she is going to new zealand..." or "oh she will surely listen to me" or "oh she is under MOE scholarship". never in my heart is there the slightest tinge to boast of my achievements sebab segala kejayaan yana bukan milik yana. kejayaan yang telah dikecapi selama ini hanyalah merupakan bunga-bunga kehidupan sahaja. it is like the icing you put on your own cake. i have never intended to take up scholarship because of prestige. i took it up because i know tertiary education is expensive and there are many people out there who cannot afford. i dun like the way you are hypocritical. because u noe why? because you are hurting yourself in the process. i am serious. and i dun like to see you being hurt. and i dun like to see that you are rejecting my help and other people's love around you. you think you are strong? i feel the pain that you are hiding.
yana selalu mendoakan. i will never leave you alone.
* spoken&willspeakagain*
9:11 PM
