i realize that i will be happy if i can control my life. as in.. i think life is like driving a car. as long as you can control it, no matter how fast you go, no matter how many police cars are chasing you, no matter how many trees you bang into... you will still be happy and you will still be sane. you won't panic because... you are simply... confident of what you are doing. you are in control. but once people try to run my life for me, that is when i realize... i start to lose my grip and i would go insane. i am sharing this with you because... it happened. when i cannot control the direction to my dreams... to my sacrifices... to my desires... and people are trying to do it for me in the name of my happiness, for which they know nothing about because they are not me... i go out of hand. i lost myself. and now i am struggling to regain the happiness that i have lost. i lost it in the darkness of the woods. i lost it in the vastness of the desert. but i do know that it is somewhere out there. i just need to find it in the right places.

i was sharing with fadz about my views on happiness and resistance some time ago. i told him never in my life do i feel such a strong attachment to something. he told me to fight for my happiness because i have a right to it. :) i think i will.

I do not want to die without trying.

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